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Dignity in Death


The morning sun starts to break the early mist; drops gently fall from frosted wire fences. Rays of golden light make their way across the fields, growing longer and reaching further towards the house as the sun gets higher.

Inside, gathered solemnly around a bed, a family are united and pay respects as the life of one slips further from their grasp. It’s been a long night of loving and tender farewells and a quiet respect from people beyond the family circle who come to visit. As the early morning draws closer, the last faint breaths of life are taken and expelled and one passes gracefully into another world.

But, it’s not 1879, its 0850 am in Melbourne in 2011 and a 37 year old young woman has just been struck by a tram in peak hour. She has fallen under the tram, suffering terrible abdominal and head injuries and the tram needs to be jacked up in order to free her.

Paramedics at the scene work on her in front of pedestrians and peak hour traffic. Police, tram workers and the media watch as she is freed and attempts to resuscitate her are made. Various IV drips are deployed, her clothes are cut from her exposing her breasts, and CPR is applied, all the while, Melbourne continues to go to work.

Her final dignity in death, as she lay bare chested on the cold roadway, is to have a sheet pulled up over her still body, where she lay for some time after as investigators went about their task of finding answers.

Dignity in Death? Not really. That will come later at her funeral when family and friends gather to mourn her loss and celebrate a life cut short. The tram stop will never be the same, and for some, they may never use it again, having been witness to a shocking and tragic death.

In reality, very few of us may enjoy a dignified death. As media, we don’t film dignified deaths. Only once did I think I had, but in retrospect, by my mere presence, I violated that dignity. A farmer, who suffered great trauma from a fall, was taken off life support. I was filming a documentary on an Emergency Ward and we were given permission by the family to document his accident and the family’s grief and plight at the decision to terminate.

I filmed with great consideration for the family, but being in the room alone was difficult. It was over very quickly and little more was said that night about it. I filmed two more after that, attesting to a long and challenging night. I saw great care and compassion from hospital staff who endure this suffering on many more occasions than I do.

But I saw no dignity.
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Dignity in Death


The morning sun starts to break the early mist; drops gently fall from frosted wire fences. Rays of golden light make their way across the fields, growing longer and reaching further towards the house as the sun gets higher.

Inside, gathered solemnly around a bed, a family are united and pay respects as the life of one slips further from their grasp. It’s been a long night of loving and tender farewells and a quiet respect from people beyond the family circle who come to visit. As the early morning draws closer, the last faint breaths of life are taken and expelled and one passes gracefully into another world.

But, it’s not 1879, its 0850 am in Melbourne in 2011 and a 37 year old young woman has just been struck by a tram in peak hour. She has fallen under the tram, suffering terrible abdominal and head injuries and the tram needs to be jacked up in order to free her.

Paramedics at the scene work on her in front of pedestrians and peak hour traffic. Police, tram workers and the media watch as she is freed and attempts to resuscitate her are made. Various IV drips are deployed, her clothes are cut from her exposing her breasts, and CPR is applied, all the while, Melbourne continues to go to work.

Her final dignity in death, as she lay bare chested on the cold roadway, is to have a sheet pulled up over her still body, where she lay for some time after as investigators went about their task of finding answers.

Dignity in Death? Not really. That will come later at her funeral when family and friends gather to mourn her loss and celebrate a life cut short. The tram stop will never be the same, and for some, they may never use it again, having been witness to a shocking and tragic death.

In reality, very few of us may enjoy a dignified death. As media, we don’t film dignified deaths. Only once did I think I had, but in retrospect, by my mere presence, I violated that dignity. A farmer, who suffered great trauma from a fall, was taken off life support. I was filming a documentary on an Emergency Ward and we were given permission by the family to document his accident and the family’s grief and plight at the decision to terminate.

I filmed with great consideration for the family, but being in the room alone was difficult. It was over very quickly and little more was said that night about it. I filmed two more after that, attesting to a long and challenging night. I saw great care and compassion from hospital staff who endure this suffering on many more occasions than I do.

But I saw no dignity.
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The Pizza Deliveryman

Your normal pizza deliveryman does not check his AK47 before he starts a delivery and makes sure it is cocked and the safety is off. The again Ahmad is getting ready to make a delivery to the rebel soldiers on the frontline.

The Pizza factory in an abandoned building is less than 3km from the front, we cannot show the exterior of the building for security reasons as they do not want Gaddafi’s army to recognize the area and shell them out of business as they say.

Filming pizza making is not normally a dangerous assignment, but here I was in a flak jacket shooting a truly bizarre scene, 20 young men all volunteers under the watchful eye of a pizza chef of Libyan descent who until a few weeks ago was living and making pizza in Sweden.

The call of the revolution had bought him back to his hometown of Misrata, Ehmad Daiki had never fired a gun or any type of weapon and when asked by leaders what he could do, he replied I can make pizza.

And thus for the last two weeks, with his team he has been turning out 6000 slices of pizza a day for fighters. A production line chops olives, breaks up fresh garlic by banging it in a plastic bottle, crushes fresh tomatoes, knead and roll out dough. People and shopkeepers in Misrata as part of their war effort donate each and every ingredient.

Every time a rocket is launched in the area or even worse an incoming rocket lands in an adjacent field the whole production line celebrates by yelling

“Allah Akhbar”

Three ovens run non stop thru the late morning and lunch, each tray is cut up and five to six slices of fresh hot pizza are wrapped in tin foil to keep warm and within half an hour they are delivered up the road.

My producer and security advisor, refused to let me go up to the front for the delivery footage. Despite my annoyance of not being able to go up and film the final scenes.

The reason being

“Mal, How in the hell am I going to explain to New York, that you got injured or killed for a story on pizza, no you cannot go”

Even I had to agree after a short sulk, risk and reward as they say. No story or single shot is worth risking your life for, and a pizza story is not how I want to be remembered.

We gave a small camera to the delivery guy with the AK47.

Mal
Misrata, Libya

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The Pizza Deliveryman

Your normal pizza deliveryman does not check his AK47 before he starts a delivery and makes sure it is cocked and the safety is off. The again Ahmad is getting ready to make a delivery to the rebel soldiers on the frontline.

The Pizza factory in an abandoned building is less than 3km from the front, we cannot show the exterior of the building for security reasons as they do not want Gaddafi’s army to recognize the area and shell them out of business as they say.

Filming pizza making is not normally a dangerous assignment, but here I was in a flak jacket shooting a truly bizarre scene, 20 young men all volunteers under the watchful eye of a pizza chef of Libyan descent who until a few weeks ago was living and making pizza in Sweden.

The call of the revolution had bought him back to his hometown of Misrata, Ehmad Daiki had never fired a gun or any type of weapon and when asked by leaders what he could do, he replied I can make pizza.

And thus for the last two weeks, with his team he has been turning out 6000 slices of pizza a day for fighters. A production line chops olives, breaks up fresh garlic by banging it in a plastic bottle, crushes fresh tomatoes, knead and roll out dough. People and shopkeepers in Misrata as part of their war effort donate each and every ingredient.

Every time a rocket is launched in the area or even worse an incoming rocket lands in an adjacent field the whole production line celebrates by yelling

“Allah Akhbar”

Three ovens run non stop thru the late morning and lunch, each tray is cut up and five to six slices of fresh hot pizza are wrapped in tin foil to keep warm and within half an hour they are delivered up the road.

My producer and security advisor, refused to let me go up to the front for the delivery footage. Despite my annoyance of not being able to go up and film the final scenes.

The reason being

“Mal, How in the hell am I going to explain to New York, that you got injured or killed for a story on pizza, no you cannot go”

Even I had to agree after a short sulk, risk and reward as they say. No story or single shot is worth risking your life for, and a pizza story is not how I want to be remembered.

We gave a small camera to the delivery guy with the AK47.

Mal
Misrata, Libya

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The Victim’s

Misrata, Libya.

Viewer Discretion advised

“We wish to advise that some images in this story…………….”

If the image is shocking to watch on a TV News bulletin, image being in the hospital room and having to physically experience the pain, suffering and anguish of the victim.

9-year-old Faraz Abu Shaba is staring at the lens and his face fills the frame, it is a haunting image of a young boy suffering 2nd degree burns; every feature is burnt and discolored. Every few seconds his expression changes and is contorted with pain. His head is listless and his eyes are elsewhere.

You have to distance yourself and somehow the lens becomes a shield that helps break the reality of where you find yourself.

His father lay in a bed next to him, eyes in a catatonic stare to nowhere. And again I filled the frame so that only his eyes gave the window to his soul and despair.

It is the first hospital we are to visit on this day.

Farazs’ older brother Ibrahim is dead, cut in half by ball bearings that had been packed in a grad rocket and fired into Misrata from Gadaffi’s forces outside the city. He had been standing at the sink outside the kitchen of his modest house in the Eastern section of the city, when the rocket landed less than 10 meters away. A steel propane tank in the yard is full of holes, from the ball bearings; Ibrahim did not stand a chance as he washed to get ready for evening prayers.

Relatives show us a passport photo of Ibrahim as a 9 year old; he looked almost angelic in that photo.

Shrapnel razor sharp is gathered and displayed on the base of what remains a wall, so that everyone who visits can examine the evidence of another war atrocity.

From the roof of our hotel in the centre of the city, we can hear and see these rockets coming in. You become accustomed to the sound of war in a weird and disjointed way. In Misrata there is no escape, you cannot simply drive away and escape, surrounded on three sides by Gadaffi troops, and the sea on the fourth side. It was one of these rockets that had hit the Shaba family home. A distant boom and smoke cloud as dusk fell the night before.

Across town in the second hospital, as I walked into the ward room it was the sound of Faraz and Ibrahim’s youngest brother that drew my attention, 2 days old and lying in his grandmother’s arms and making new born squeals and lifting his arms and legs.

On the other side of the room his mother lay, burnt head to toe and wrapped in bandages, only her face and toes exposed charred and raw. She had probably been standing in the kitchen when the rocket hit and a fireball engulfed her after killing Ibrahim a second beforehand. I remember standing in her kitchen only an hour ago, everything black, mangled metal plates half melted and a pool of aluminum on the floor that had melted in the firestorm.

She cannot open her eyes due to the burns and swelling.

In a whisper barely audible thru cracked and burnt lips, she says

“God will take care of the people responsible”

It is hard not to want to show the close up because, the impact of the horrors of war are not some computer game whereby if you die you get another life, when you are hit the impact is forever and all that matters in life is shattered.

I walk out and back to the car, it has been a tough morning and more rockets fall that afternoon, from the roof I wonder if another families life has been destroyed.

I send the edited story back to Washington, and at the end I include extra video of wide shots of the hospital rooms in case the close-ups are too graphic they can decide, for at the frontlines of a war zone, you find yourself with a different acceptance of what war is really like. Close ups of faces and eyes show the doorway to the soul and without seeing into the soul you cannot feel the pain of innocent victims.

Mal
Misrata

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The Victim’s

Misrata, Libya.

Viewer Discretion advised

“We wish to advise that some images in this story…………….”

If the image is shocking to watch on a TV News bulletin, image being in the hospital room and having to physically experience the pain, suffering and anguish of the victim.

9-year-old Faraz Abu Shaba is staring at the lens and his face fills the frame, it is a haunting image of a young boy suffering 2nd degree burns; every feature is burnt and discolored. Every few seconds his expression changes and is contorted with pain. His head is listless and his eyes are elsewhere.

You have to distance yourself and somehow the lens becomes a shield that helps break the reality of where you find yourself.

His father lay in a bed next to him, eyes in a catatonic stare to nowhere. And again I filled the frame so that only his eyes gave the window to his soul and despair.

It is the first hospital we are to visit on this day.

Farazs’ older brother Ibrahim is dead, cut in half by ball bearings that had been packed in a grad rocket and fired into Misrata from Gadaffi’s forces outside the city. He had been standing at the sink outside the kitchen of his modest house in the Eastern section of the city, when the rocket landed less than 10 meters away. A steel propane tank in the yard is full of holes, from the ball bearings; Ibrahim did not stand a chance as he washed to get ready for evening prayers.

Relatives show us a passport photo of Ibrahim as a 9 year old; he looked almost angelic in that photo.

Shrapnel razor sharp is gathered and displayed on the base of what remains a wall, so that everyone who visits can examine the evidence of another war atrocity.

From the roof of our hotel in the centre of the city, we can hear and see these rockets coming in. You become accustomed to the sound of war in a weird and disjointed way. In Misrata there is no escape, you cannot simply drive away and escape, surrounded on three sides by Gadaffi troops, and the sea on the fourth side. It was one of these rockets that had hit the Shaba family home. A distant boom and smoke cloud as dusk fell the night before.

Across town in the second hospital, as I walked into the ward room it was the sound of Faraz and Ibrahim’s youngest brother that drew my attention, 2 days old and lying in his grandmother’s arms and making new born squeals and lifting his arms and legs.

On the other side of the room his mother lay, burnt head to toe and wrapped in bandages, only her face and toes exposed charred and raw. She had probably been standing in the kitchen when the rocket hit and a fireball engulfed her after killing Ibrahim a second beforehand. I remember standing in her kitchen only an hour ago, everything black, mangled metal plates half melted and a pool of aluminum on the floor that had melted in the firestorm.

She cannot open her eyes due to the burns and swelling.

In a whisper barely audible thru cracked and burnt lips, she says

“God will take care of the people responsible”

It is hard not to want to show the close up because, the impact of the horrors of war are not some computer game whereby if you die you get another life, when you are hit the impact is forever and all that matters in life is shattered.

I walk out and back to the car, it has been a tough morning and more rockets fall that afternoon, from the roof I wonder if another families life has been destroyed.

I send the edited story back to Washington, and at the end I include extra video of wide shots of the hospital rooms in case the close-ups are too graphic they can decide, for at the frontlines of a war zone, you find yourself with a different acceptance of what war is really like. Close ups of faces and eyes show the doorway to the soul and without seeing into the soul you cannot feel the pain of innocent victims.

Mal
Misrata

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Digital Media Conference East – Media Leaders and Influencers Descend on DC

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Engaging, inspiring, and invigorating –  how I describe the Digital Media East  conference that I attended last week in the DC metro area.  Let’s face it, some of these confabs leave a little to be desired – shop worn topics, the usual suspects peddling the same presentations. This was not one of those conferences. The Digital Read More

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